majestic_duxk | I see a red door

I am having a bad day.

actually, it's not really a bad day, it's more like the culmination of bad months.

I'm just in such a negative headspace, and my upset/angry/frustrated thoughts are just spiralling around.

it makes sense, I know. Mum's health issues. Dad's health issues. My employment issues. I feel like I have no support, and while that isn't exactly true, the feelings are very real.

So I am just... angry. Angry frustrated sad. And I don't want to feel like this, but I also am really struggling with how to kick the crankyness. I'm in a mental/physical/emotional rut, and I keep thinking oh yeah. I'm home! I could start eating healthy. or start exercising. I could improve my drawing skills, or maybe work on Japanese all these things and I end up doing none of them. NONE.

but yeah. I am not in a great space, and I am not being very effective at pushing myself out of it. I am hoping that the sunny weather will help (I hope it's sunny. today was the first day with sunshine in two weeks)

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I wish I could be there to offer RL support. Cyber-support just isn't the same.

I so, so get the complete inertia in dark times. It's really hard to see at those times why doing anything is important. But it is. And you will, and it will help. But if you can't quite get there yet, don't beat yourself over it. Give yourself what you would give someone else-- compassion, kindness, time. Then start small, and by then maybe it will be time for GISHWHES and all hopes of a normal routine will fly out the window. ;-)

Sending hugs and encouragement *squeezes you* <3 <3

I see a red door

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